Well I soon began to realise that I was basically on my own, I hated my mum for what she had put me through. She had and still has never shown any love for me in any way, I watched films etc where the daughters and mums and a special bond. I so wished I could have that and vowed if I should ever have a little girl of my own that I would make sure we had that special bond.
I got on with my life hanging about with the kids near me and swapping between M and P for affection, I had a few good friends at school etc but only a couple of real true friends.
Deep down I was unhappy and felt let down by my parents, my dad never really said much or showed affection to any of us but my mum she showered my brother with love but not me or my sister.... I suppose it down to her losing my older brother but even so this wasnt fair and I resented her and him for this.
I think they also had money worries as we were told we were moving yet again to a smaller house but in the same area....we were like gypo's never settling long in one place.
I spent a lot of time with my mates and at their houses - they all seemed to have good relationships with their parents and I wanted to share on this in any way I could....
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